Talk,Teach,Flower,and Candle

   Pick a flower,lay it next to a candle and light the candle. In remeberance of the beautiful souls who have left our home too early,the ones that we have met,the ones we shared our oxygen we breathe in with,water we drink with, the emotions we endure.
     Who ever,what ever you are,parent,teacher,sibling,student,aunt,uncle,grandparent,ect. talk to the ones around you about treat others with dignity,respect,and equality. With simple statments,talks you can help prevent bullying. Whoever you are,teachers are great for this because they are in the class rooms of those we are bullied and those who are bullies. Its all of OUR responciblity to teach others about how bullying is a forum of ensucerity. I was bullied and I was lucky to have made it through and not been bullied nearly as bad as those who have lossed their lives but I will be sure to educate my son and possible students (because I want to teach) about the effects of bullying.







~Written in honnor of Ashlynn Connor May you be at peace sweetheart~

Keep Searching!

  Keep researching!
  Keep asking questions!
  Keep questioning things!
  Keep discovering!
  Keep exploring!
  Keep reading!
  Keep thinking!
  Keep searching!
  Keep wandering!

Never stop!

Quote of the Day!

~ So very true,the littlest things are our hearts biggest treasures~

Color Therapy

Do you ever remember when you were a child getting your crayons and coloring book or coloring books out and just getting into your picture that your bringing to life with color?
   Color is what our souls need. Alot of people are not aware of that,but its true. Think of it like this,you are stuck in a room with black walls and only the objects are black and white. Another day you are put into a room thats bursting with colors! How will you feel? Even try staring at a black peice of construction paper and then a peice of paper with lots of colors on it. See how your mood and brain reacts to it.
     If you have kids or younger sibblings look at their coloring books,sit down with them and color a page. It will help you release stress,depression and when your in a "blah" kinda mood or feel like everything in your life is out of control. If you dont have a child or younger sibblings go to a store even the dollar store or 99 cent store and pick up a coloring book that you like and a box of crayons. If you dont have the money to or just cant see to find one you like you can always google,bing,aol,ect search coloring book pages in the images section and print them up. There is NO age limit on coloring! Who ever says there is; is a fruit-loop! Color is good for the soul and stimulates our brains. Even as teens and adults we need to still stimulate our brains. Alot of people are not aware but we all have what is called a hidden eye.Its basically like a window,what I mean by that is,imagine a room with thick black velvet curtains. There is no light in the room and without the sun shining through there will be no light. If the curtains are open there will be light in the room. Still with me? What im explaining is if our hidden eye is not exposed to light including color it will effect you leading to depression. Color feeds the mind,body and soul.  Just break out the coloring books and crayons sit down and color,get into the picture you are bringing to life with color. It will help you in so many ways youll be amazed.   

Things to do on a Rainy Day

Things to do on a Rainy Day

1.Bake,baking can make a rainy day go by faster.

2. Have a lazy da,curl up in the blankets and watch tv or movie with a pet,or special little buddy.

3. Write a story.
4. Start an art project.

                                                                               
                                                                                 5. put on some fun music and dance around 
the house when no one is watching

 6. Start or finnish a book. 

 7. Color in a coloring book.


 8. Build a fort.
 

Most important!!!!!
  Dont forget to open a window and listen to the beautiful natural music of the rain!

                                                                                
                                  

Matilda

So...I havent ever done this but for the first time I am. I am doing a movie review! YAY
  Before I get started,I dont normally watch movies,unless they are magical,inspiring and childrens. I am not a fan of movies that people my age are into I am embaressed to say but I really dont get sexual humor or crude humor or any "bitch fighting" humor excuse the language but there was no other term for that,my mom and step dad were watching the movie Brides Maids and I could NOT stand the language and talk of that movie. Ugggh! It was like shut up! My gosh!

  So without further a due,my review!

Matilda is a very inspiring and sweet movie,It is one of my favorite movies and I just finished watching so I got the inspiration to write a review. Its about a little girl who is brave and smart. She unlocks powers she has in her mind.
    I personally feel this is a movie every child should have in their movie collection to remind them to be brave,be themselves and know they are never alone.
    No one is too old for this movie I am 20 years old and still enjoy it!
Its simple,fun,sweet,heart warming,and has a twist of adventure,

One of the other characters of the movie I just adore is Miss Honey,Matilda's teacher. She is so sweet and magical in her own way. She loves her students,later stands up to Miss Trenchbull who is her aunt that treated her badly and took her childhood home.

The friendship and adventure with Miss Honey and Matilda is magical,Matilda uses her special power Telechinesis to rescue one of miss Honeys treasures her doll that her mother who died when she was 2 gave her.Along with some of her other treasures she had to leave behind when leaving her home occupied by her aunt Miss Trenchbull.

       Miss Trenchbull is the "villian" persay of the the movie who is BIG and SCARY! She hates children and is later defeated by Matilda and Miss Honey.

One thing I must say,is that I can sure relaite to Matilda's family! Her mother,obsesses on her looks. Spending her time on her hair and make-up! Her father spending his time with the television and a mean brother.

  I just adore Matilda's sence of fashion! The little bow is too cute! Reminds me of me and my hat that I now obsess over! I used to wear a bow when I was real little myself. 

Another thing I must say is I admire Matilda for her bravery and smarts! She is an amazing character who is inspiring to all. No matter what her parents and brother said she did what she wanted,she made her way,she stood her ground and never stoped being her.
    I will say I am sure going to invest in buying a copy of the book Matilda by Roald Dahl and review that after I read it. I heard it is as good as the movie.

Why Mothers Need Their Sons

1. They teach their mothers that they can do anything!

 2. They let them know they are needed.

 3. They show them that everyday doesnt go by without a smile.

4. They always give their mommy's kisses when needed.

 5. They always bring them comfort when others cant or dont.

 6. They give their mommys the unconditional love they need and never knew they needed.

 7. They are the little helpers.

8. They give their mommys confidence and thumbs up in the kitchen.

 

 

9. They cuddle their mommys tightly to keep them safe from the monsters.

                                    

                                10. They protect their mommy's from the bad.
                                

      MOST OF ALL THEY TEACH THEIR MOMMYS THAT NOT ALL GUYS ARE BIG JERKS!

Every girl/woman is a Goddess!

In todays society there is a new trend "Thinspiriation". For those who dont know thinspiriation is the trend of annorexicia and bullemia along with other eating disorders and diets.
   The goal for most women is to get into a size 0 even if it costs them their well being. Eating disorders are not just bad for your body but they are bad for your self esteem and the others around you. Once a family member or friend finds out they become concerned and try to help in any way or as many ways possible. Sometimes to the point it brings a great deal of stress upon them.
   Not all woman who are annorexic or bullemic are in it for the thinspiration trend.No,there are women and even in rare cases men who suffer from it due to psycological issues. Even a verbaly abusive partner could be a cause. Even a brief comment about some ones weight or even girls telling eachother their weight can be a root cause of an eating disorder. Its a very serious matter that should be taken with compassion,not critizism. Ive heard people make snide comments about an annorexic or bullemic. Unfortunatly I blame thinspiration for the critizism because sadly there are those who are psycologicaly influenced and cannot escape it. Those are the ones who need compassion and support while over comming this illness.
   

All of us women do have the power and control to fight this "thinspiration" from ourselves,our friends,sisters,daughters,and other females you may have in your life along with future generations. What needs to be pointed out is that beauty is not a number its a natural right as a woman to be beautiful. There is nothing wrong with fun fashion and make up,no its all in expressing you and how you feel. Big girls are and can be beautful. By wearing the right jeans,tops they will look in that mirror and think "look at me!". Average size girls same thing and even just finding your own style will give you an impowering "look at me!" kind of feeling. Personally I love a pair of loose fitting jeans or cords and  a simple but cute top or plain t-shirt and if its cool a sweatshirt. I feel adorable in my modest comfortable attire. Another thing since I said the word modest,my mother had brought up that some one she knew was saying how hard it is to find modest clothing for girls. Personally I agree but I do know there is modest clothes out there! Dressing modest doent make you a nerd or prude. It just shows off your impowered confidence to walk out covered "no not like a nun!",covered in the appropriate way such as little cleavage or none and no booty shorts! It shows your self respect and self worth. Being beautiful or even sexy does not have to cost you your life,health and food life. It doesnt mean you need to buy the most expencive designer jeans or wear flashy clothing. No it is all about YOU. Beauty is a natural right not a number.

Magic in the Morning

This isnt going to be a long post,well most mine arnt long half the time to begin with hehe. I woke up very early this morning,I looked at the time,bundled up and watched as the sun came up. Unfortunantly I cant see the sun actually rise but I can see its beautiful light shine in and into the sky. So beautiful. I remember how every morning I would walk to school and breath in the cool crisp air,look at all the flowers waking up,the freashly watered green grass and my favorite the peaceful stillness.
  

Childhood Magic

Dont you remember looking up at the stars and moon at night? Wasnt the thought in your mind that they were magic? Do you ever remember when you would make a wish or wishes on stars? 
   I remember as a small wee girl at the ages of 4-5 I would stay up and look at the moon from my window. I would make a wish on the star that I was drawn to. Even as I got older I cannot sleep or do not sleep well unless I have the moon light shinning down on me. I always take a few minutes at night to just STOP and take in the beauty and magic of the night. The stillness of the stars and light of the moon is so captivating.
If people would do that and keep up with old childhood magic we would probably stay connected with out inner child. Our inner-child is the key to happiness. Its the key to life,as humans we have a natural "want" to still play! We all still have that "belief" in magic and the unknown or the "impossible". We still find excitment in freashly baked cookies,sprinklers,snow,holidays,the simplicity of life.
    Go out side tonight look at the stars,stand under the moon light feel her glow and presence. In the summer blow bubbles,make popsicles using fun juices maybe mix them,run through the sprinklers,even go swimming. Color,write creative fun and silly stories,gets some clay or mudd and squish your hands and fingers in it maybe your toes too! During the holidays if you use a tree decorate it with the fun rainbow lights,fun and funky orniments,bake fun treats. Never loose love and excitment for the simple. The simple things in life are the most cherished later down the road when looking back.

follow the trail

  Believe it or not but we are lead to the greatest things in the most oddest,strangest ways.
I sure have and I still am, Just kick back and enjoy the ride. In the end youll see it was all well worth it.

Quote of the day

                                                       ~Another quote of the day~

A quote for the day

                                                        (A lovely quote that is so true)

~Writing~

Within the last month my main goal and dream has been to complete and publish a book I am in the process of weaving and writting. It has a balance of fiction and history to please both audiences of fictional lovers and historical lovers. I have no possible clue when I will get it finished I have part of the begining written. So far I am still doing reaserch of the Gold Rush in California and time through the 20th century. It has been so far a fun time learning things I didnt remember or had forgotten.Another thing that will make this book stand out from others is there is no supernatural or romanic focuses. Its all focused on family,discovery,and heritage. What im really hoping to get out of this book is not being a best seller or anything on that level. I want to have the "I did it!" feeling. Being able to see my book on a book shelf seeing my pen name ___ Newhouse (I have no clue what my begining part will be lol) on a book will feel great!

 Another thing id love is to give people something to enjoy. My writing is somthing I love to share with others. Its my joy,I feel that our personal joy should be shared with others whether it being art,music,singing,dance,cooking,

Knowlege,ect. We all have something of our enjoyment that we take pride in. For me its my talent in writing and creativity to weave a good story.
     I do not want to give too much a way of my book but it being focused on history of the gold rush is where this womans family history that is known of begins. Her family home and old quilt is the tie of her family history and heritage. Being said all that it takes you back to that era and specific place an important part of her families history took place.

My love for writing started at a very young age. I was 10 when I wrote my first little book series I made out of blank paper that folded in half to make a book. My first little series was called Karen Sherlock,haha I was qite a little copy cat huh? It wasnt inspired by Sherlock Holmes! I loved the Nancy Drew series after reading a book of that series I was hooked! Karen Sherlock was a detective who solved crimes. I remember my first Karen Sherlock story was about a missing Canary. The book cover I made had her and the missing Yellow Canary in a bird cage. I had so much fun writing those,I would spend hours at the table drawing and writing those little books. I wasnt the best at my grammar,or spelling (still a bit off at times) but I had fun. Even now im a 20 year old woman and I have note books and note books full of stories and writing ideas I have. I have been working on a fiction/fantasy book for children since I was 16,not too much has changed,I kept the uncles name the same but two of the childrens names had changed into much better names. I keep getting stuck on the plot but I do find my self back to those notes adding more and more to each chapter and to the story its self. I know personally that it will take a long time before I even get close to finished on that peice but writing is based on time and most important YOU,as we grow,mature,and learn our writing tends to change. Even within at time period of our lives one may be at a dark state and write a great peice but its very dark. One may be going through a spirtual journey and write a spiritual based book that is uplifting and positive. Writing is an expression of who you are and how your feeling. Alot of people dont tend to realise or think about writing as an open diary of the Author. Its their own thoughts and feelings being woven into a story. Do you really think these writers pull these things out of their ass? No,its their expression of how they are feeling and thinking. Yes you may read "she slowly turned the door knob and as she opened the door the henges creeked." ok no thats not a feeling but the story line is. Perhaps the story is about a man starting over sober and begining a new life. Who knows that Author has been in that situaton or is in it but writing it in a characters point of veiw. One could write of a relationship and who knows that Author had been in the same type or is finding love again or for the first time and wants to express their joy for it.
Even writing does not have to be of a feeling it could be of the authors interests and fascinations.Writing is a very amazing art and self expression tool. Not only does it take me away but its my outlet from the real world.Its just nice to slip into the mind of

different person and visualise a new environment.

Being a published Author is a huge dream and goal for me. Its not my main focus but its somthing I am not letting go of. Yes there is going to be times I put my peice on the back burner but doesnt mean I can come back and stir things up. I dont have high hopes of being the next Dan Brown,JK Rowling,Jane Austin,ect. I just want to be a published author whos work has been shared with the world and being read by others.     "A favorite of mine is to curl up with a notebook and hot cup of hot coco"                                                                                

I have to say my favortie Authors would have to be Holly Black,Toni Dizerelli,JK Rowling,Sylvia Cassedy,Shel Silverstine, and Lemony Snicket. My favorite book is "Behind the Attic Wall" by Sylvia Cassedy. My favorite Childrens poetry Authors is Shel Silverstine, and my favorite childrens book

 is Chrysanthymum by keven Henks.

                     "I love to write on a rainy autumn or winter day its the best and most magical time for writing to me"

~~Feeling the chill of change in the air~~

    One morning I had woken up to a chill in the air,it was the first sign of Autumn around me. Every Autumn theres just that somthing I feel in the air the chill just brings this scence of change,time to change,shed the old,and the feeling of magic in the air. Oh my gosh! Its amazing!
  The interesting thing is Autumn is the time of the new and time of change. Being that on October 31st is Samhain (Sow-en) the pernounciation for those who are not familiar,its the Pagan New year. Also the time when the veil is lifted and before Samhain it gets thinner and thinner. As this veil is getting thinner and thinner and then is lifeted,our ancestors are walking the earth.
  Before I had NO idea of paganism,I new of it from my family but not knowing of it though if that makes any sence lol,I would think as a young girl that Autumn was when the year began! How crazy was that!?!
   Being outside feeling the magical chill in the air seeing the fallen leaves,feeling the crisp air in the morning,seeing the colors...just SOOO SOOO magical! Its natures way of saying time for change!!! Time to donate items of no use,need or want,time of discovering new uncharted places of YOU spiritually. The time of just being and discovering.

Recipe

    So I was watching a Youtube video about..hmm Id say two weeks ago,maybe three. It was titled Recipe,it was uploaded by a womans channel that im subscribed to so I watched it wondering if it was a RECIPE because she always plays her guitar and sings becautifuly, but when I watched it the first few minutes was a song! So I was thinking ok,maybe its just a new song she wrote wanted to share and will get to the recipe soon.

No actually it was her talking about a woman she new when she traveled to Ireland and how this woman was a wonderful cook and always made her dreams come true no matter what it was. 

The thing was with this womans cooking was she had this special way of getting all the ingredients just right she knew what to add and how much to add perfectly. Even with her goals and dreams she would get everything figured out what she needed/needed to do. She would put it together like a recipe. She new what she needed to do using each "ingredient" she made her goals come true.

   I was thinking WOW! She really knew what to do! She is very right! Our goals are like following a recipe we gather all the ingredients (steps),portion them (listing the steps) and messuring (time). Its like getting out a hug pot,get all the ingredients together,seperate them into each portion,messure, and by what needs to go in first,get your pot ready and begin adding and stirring and adding until your dish is complete. Its just as simple as that! 

    Yes accomplishing our goals is not easy ot simple but if you take the time to list,divide and messure your ingredients you will have your dish done in no time!

GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR RECIPE!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1PotUIbUW5k

      Link to CoraFlora's wonferful video Recipe!

My Dream and Current Goal

My current goal and dream is to become a Science teacher for Jr.High. Its been a goal of mine for qite a while now,Theres just somthing about it that rings true that tells me your ment to do it! Yeah ive had career goals in the past but NOTHING like this!

I do invision my class room all the time,I think of how I will open the door to questions and discovery to my students at such a young age. I want it to be fun,I want my students to walk in their first day and think WOW! Ill have books,posters,pets,models,plants,anything you can think of that would be eye grabbing!I want every day to be a learning adenture. I would have science experiments and hands on learning. All my students work would be up on the walls for encouragment and praise. My students would know that there is NO such thing as a stupid question in my class! No sir! My class room is all about questions and answers! I want to be that teacher students can talk to and trust in case of any problems im there. I want to be that teacher that is unforgetable because I let my students think free,try new experiments,learn,discover,ask questions no matter how crazy they are!

Even they days we have to have book work I want to have atleast 20 minutes set aside for question time and science chat. I have thought of having teams by color (red team,yellow team,blue team..ect.) like science groups so they could do projects together and observe the class pets or plants or whatever the assignment is! Id even bring Art into Science with lots of art supplies for my students to make colorful and amazing posters and projects.

Id even have a photo wall of my students projects,working together,class projects,ect. My students would SEE their hard work and what they do! They would have that encouragment and support to succeed and go far.Being a teacher is my calling,its my dream,its my goal. I know one day I will be standing in my own class room proud of the goal I reached and knowing I have made a difference in learning even if its only a small amount of students.

Releasing old pain and anger with love and perfect trust

      Being through so much pain and anger within the past year has take a complete toll on me.  Tonight I had made the desicion to let go of all that with love and perfect trust. After I had done that,Oh my gosh! I havent felt this great in my whole life! I feel AMAZING! I feel as if weights have been lifted off of me. Letting go of this,has set me free.  Ive felt tied up within chains the past few years and now its like taking off freely into the next thing.
 If you are feeling this way,take a peice of paper and write down "Release any old pain and anger with love and perfect trust" and burn it in a safe dish or fire. BE SAFE!!!
 This is telling the universe I am DONE and ready to move on! I only have love and perecft trust.
                                   

the darkness always leads into the light

           Unfortunatly in life we have out downs. Even we can have a down day where we arnt feeling it. Sometimes alot of us have a down period of time in our lives. Ive been there too and it was a very very dark time in my life. I did not think I was going to make it through all of it. But I did! I am getting my education going,I have decided to become a Jr.High Science teacher. I have a healthy,happy,growing son. I have an amazing man who loves me for me.I look back at that time and all it did was help me grow up and grow strong.I am proud that I made it! It was a very dark and lonely time.
   You know what I learned? That its negatives that only lead to positives. We can only develope from the negatives like the quote below says. Its true its 100% true! its like pulling coins out of a bag pennies,and nickles being negatives and there a few dimes and quarters being the positives. No matter how many times you pull a coin out ot the bag you WILL eventually pull out a positive. Things take TIME and PLACE,there being the right time and place.
 The universe knows us better than we know ours selves and knows that we need a "wake up call" or "appreciation check" and then the time for what I call your "pass word out" when we get to a spesific point we have a chance to get out and thats the special "pass word" the universe is looking for wheather it bieng something said,something done,something gained,something lossed,somthing of another action.

Health is Back baby!

Health is back! After a year and a half ive been fighting to get my health back on track. I was very sickly,loosing hair by the chunks,weight was after I got sick 50 lbs and then recovering my weight was 87. I have finally made it back,my hair is in tact! I started out with a new hair cut back in september of '10 after that grew it out and then of march '11 I had gotten a new cut after that ive no more hair loss problems. In September of '10 I began taking prenatal vitamins. They are said to be taken before,during and after pregancy. With it being a multi-vitamin with everything women need I thought well why not try? I did and withn a year and half still taking them I have been healthier since. Ive also gone vegetarian back in march (again had to quit when I was seventeen due to poor health) now that I can cook and know about nutrition I have felt,happier,healthier and more energetic! Its great to be back to me old self again! Its taken a year and a half but its well worth it! 

Look at the new healthy me! YAY

Counting my blessings each day

  Every day I wake up and list every one of the things that I am greatful for and blessed with,every night before I fall asleep I list every one of the things I am greatful for and blessed with. I thank the universe,the gods,my friends,my family,my beautiful son,my pets,all that makes my life a blessing

Quote of the day

You don't have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body. -C.S Lewis

LOVE

 

No this is not some lovey romantic post,lol today's topic is about to just show some love. How? you may ask,very simple answer! Open up your heart and arms. Show care to the earth and the furry,scaly,and feathered neighbors.
     Another is love yourself,respect your self,respect others around you. Don't push people away who are not of your way of life. So they may be married to the same sex,so they maybe of another race,so they maybe of another religion. So what! It is what makes things fun,theres a variety of people and backgrounds out there to learn from.  Show some care to a stray,theres three strays I have adopted that I feed and play with. they know they are loved here. I don't ever push away an animal or person. I love meeting others and learning from others. Just show some LOVE! Simple as its said!